Past few months, things really change drastically...I'm still trying to figure out what exactly had happened...I try to gather these puzzles, pieces by pieces and put it together...and yet fail to find the answer...I try really hard to understand...to accept.
Am I afraid of changes?? Yes...because day by day I felt like I have to be someone else rather than myself.. from a simple salesgirl to someone that have the power to make decision...and with every decision u make, there's consequences u need to bear...and then everything else start to change...my friend and my love one..my surrounding..my responsibility..everything.
I'm the one who make this decision...coz i really believe in faith, that better things waiting for me...BUT what if I'm wrong?? What if I'm not strong enough to face this.?? I look around, and I see one by one leaving me..untill there's NO ONE around me anymore..and I get really scared...Ya ALLAH, please give me strength, give me ur guidance...how hard I pray for someone to be with me...the same way that I'm gonna be with them when they need me.
Then...suddenly I realise...there will be no regrets, no turning back...Coz I'm on my own..